Gud days are coming!!!

Atleast, feeling like dat!! Some great moments in the pipeline. Happy Go Lucky Kid.

Indecent me!!!

For the first time in my life, I felt today that things that i think or talk about can be a junk of indecency, obscenity and with an acerbic taste.

I guess either I m too much of a broad minded soul OR ....forget it. I will try to change and make sure there be a defined line of thinking.

Guess what!!

U r in ur room smoking and working. Suddenly u get an email and all tht u want to do for the rest of ur life becomes lucid clear. This is n't sm fantasy filled story frm the likes of rudyard kipling or J Rowling. It really happened for true!!!

Atleast I can say, I have a vision now...and I m sure what I m going to do with my life.

The whole idea of being in Love
(partly based on fiction)
I was just wondering today about the changes one perceives around him when he is in love. well, its not my first time but I m sure this one is more genuine and with a flare. That doesnt mean my past was nt that intimate but yeah, I really feel some burning sensation for the present relationship. I proposed her a week back and she gently rejected saying "U r a nice guy, I want to be with you but even if I try I just can't". Now that's pretty interesting. What a kool way to turn someone down. But as they say, every cloud has a silver lining. I fumbled into her asking if that was all btw we two. Supposedly, she realized. Afterall, I m a NICE GUY. A 4 hr long chat....silence prevails and a wretched voice frm the other end....."Lets try this." It wasnt a complete YES neither was a NO. Kind of a centrist attitude.

Now with the time I m feeling as if my engrossment of all divin love like feelin is on a passing phase and someone frm the other end wants to be more firm into it. Lets see where it all shapes.

The bottom line is, I m still njoin my single status but in a committed way.....I guess I m in luv again!!!!

Looking in the past

"Well, its 4 am in the morning. I cant have any sleep. My eyes are paining but I don feel tired. I am just feeling rejuvenated. Waiting for the dawn to break and a new day to arrive. Desperately waiting for her call. Seems, life has come to a halt. Its too pathetic but still I can see a ray of hope coming thru the window. yes, its a full moon nite.

I am listening to some of the oldies, all of them are romantic hits where the actor gets into some pain and tries to comfort him with singing some soft melodies. I have tried my best to be the most ideal and perfect person in this world. Have taken oath so many times not to harm any individual. Keep doing good to everyone. Still, I land in difficult situations. I know they are just momentarily and often more aggravated by my own assumptions. However, I just cant resist loving her. Its almost 13 days and I havent heard her voice. Life is coming to an end. Praying day and nite to ameliorate things. Hope the coming dawn will bring some smile to my gloomy life.

June 10th '06
Rishu
Mumbai"

Date with a Mermaid.....

She was there all alone
Smiling, fondling, with a deep caring look.
As if asking, ohh lord wats in me that u seeking for...
my beauty, my soul is never mine..its all bestowed to thy sake.

I touched her with a divine feel
as if not a neatly carved flesh
I can see the greatest irony
all aghast is "Me" in me.

Not again the same legend
Not again the same destiny
Not again the sordid tale
that I alwayz wanted to retreat

She offered a Kiss
but there was no touching
I felt the warmth
and caressed

She bent over and asked gently
for how long thy be looking at me
I gasped with blinking eyes
cant help admiring ur beauty

Our fingers locked in
with a pinch of nails
Her soft delight
was soothing and sore
She smiled at me
with a frozen look
asking me when will I leave

It was dark na na darker
infact the darkiest that can be
was AM 2 and she sleepy
I gave a hug n left......

with some wishes and hopes
and glares in my eyes
to meet this mermaid
again n again....

To feel again the same untouched kiss
to feel again the same soothing pinch
To feel again the same audacity of emotional "Me"
To feel again the same fear of being marooned!!!!

Best of Luck

Some thing that u gonna listen whenever ur frnds or smbdy whum u kno finds u appearing fr smthing different frm ur usual stuffs. Sounds gud when its fr sm kind of exm, interview or smthing really imp fr u. But now ppl have a habbit to cliche it using numerous times even on smthing totally out of context.

For e.g, If I say I gonna go fr a date, Ppl frm backside start cheering BOL rishu Best of luck!!!

I think, I think and I think....wat was that BOL for??? And then u see a very weird smile on their faces as if they r trying to explain the hidden meaning of Best of luck......I looked into his eyes....a very different look trying to say smthing......Best of luck....na na...Breast of Luck!!!!! OR Best of F**k!!!!

The chucking ends n u go away on ur way....

Around 10 months back on a drunken night:

I might be in the state of delirium where I am nt able to think or rather percieve what changes are going around me. I feel as if I am being turned into a carcass. I constantly question myself about the very existence of happiness, freedom, vigour, power and all luring adjectives. Do I really fit into these or its just a matter of chance that I m being deprived from them. Well Well, I dont even know whatever I have scribbled so far. Seems, I am in a state of immense pain that can never be shown to the outer world. It ruins me, It ruins my sanity. I am someone without a worth. Cant think of anything. Wish I change soon from what I m.

Thankfully my Blog is back

You may find it interesting..Mostly fr beginners in the love zone.

Love is smthing that we all crave for. Whether b a King or a Pawn..Love touches everyone's heart. Its nt nly a fantasy of a juvenile heart but also the audacity of gallant souls. In short, love is a wave which has or had or will touch the coastline of ur heart once in ur lifetime.

We all dream to be a gr8 player of this game....bt thr r sm basics which U must know before entering the arena....The basics which will never overcome u even if u win and the basics which will never let u feel low even if u be defeated.

Rembr, its nt that Love is painful, nor that being NOT in love is painful...

The Qns....What Is Love?

Love is smthing tht can never b defined. Its such a precious feeling which you even rate higher than being divine. A nostalgic feeling of being at home even if ur mummy cooking a meal fr u...Cant imagine..ehh!! Now thats what love actually is...U never kno what gonna happen. But They say when u r in true love....U can kill ur self, exterminate urself, destroy ur every existence...but cant afford to misss ur sweetheart

The Strategy

From my experience what I have percieved so far..there are basically two modes of playing this game. Both of them are totally different from each other BUT with the same rules and regulations.

In case of Boys:

• They look for all available domain space. Look for soft targets. After the target is identified they keep on trying their best to make the Bandi commit. You may find it strange that How this is Love..basically the preliminary attitude nly is to make a GF rather gettin a love. But believe me...this attitude changes wth time and HE and SHE falls into divine love with no ambits and bounds.

• Gal shows explicit or rather implicit remarks of romanticism and persuades the guy to open his heart and embrace her even though the guy has no particular feelings for her. The guy committs coz in this highly competetive world he never wants to miss any luck and even if the then stated love vows wr nthing but sheer mendacity, the love grows on wth time and again committment with no ambits and bounds

In case of Gals:

• Someone of a decent look with a cute innocence on face who can provide social and economic security to her and who is someone ahead of the crowd.

( Rest I don kno...cozz nt many Gfs alive :P)

Rules of the game:

• Never ever commit to a girl whum U think is nt worthy to be bestowed with your genuine love. I mean to say that you will find times when she is the soft target to get,providing all the needs and desires that a soul mate can do fr u but your relationship can become very vulnerable and is poised to shower u with mammoth pains in the long run. Even if in a year long relationship, you find that okk this is nt a gud thing bout her bt i will manage, My best suggestion....make urself clear and be prepared fr the future...U may face sm real hardtimes in ur life.

• At times U will feel that things are nt going ur way and U need to do smthing. U talk to ur mate how to handle the situation and the output is most likely to come this way okk things r nt wrking but we will better wait and watch..even if it dsnt wrk then we will take step that time. My suggestion....Dont wait fr anything..thr is no second time. They say patience is gud to have but in the game of Love..patience dsnt work. Hit the iron nt when it is hot....but in Love...keep hitting the iron so tht it gets hot and when its hot ,hit again and things will cm ur way.

To be a winner in love:

Find a girl who is definitely a correct choice for u. ( and I will tell u how to chose one)

ELSE

Follow The rule of 3 F's

Flirt, Fu*k and Forget
And Thy shall always remain happy
Believe me there are hundreds of "so called ultra modern hot chics " wandering around for the coveted F word.

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But Onething fr sure....If U don have Love......U have missd smthing.
No wrldly pleasure can act second to it...


Well, there are many more fundaes and I will probably take more sessions on that but fr now I guess this much is decent enuf to make u aware bout myths and facts of love.....The rest of it wil be continued in sequel

Sitting in my closet I keep on pondering bout whu I m so that I may scribble somewrds that u may find amusing. Deep thinking....Deeper even ....I cudnt think of any character trait. Amaging na, U dont even kno what u r...perhaps a narcissist or a solipsist or someone too mean and aggressive. I dont know. Thinking that this is the toughest of all answers, Whu am I...

I see Life, and I find that it has got so many laurels for me. Just i need to do is to grab them. So simple isnt it? But at the same time, I see my pals, my friends, My inner soul and obviously my soulmate whu are alwayz there with me sharing all the goodies I am accounting with them. One sudden change...Phew!!!! Seems everything gone. Nobody there, U r alone in this mortal world. U think and think and think.....alas, no answer. Only a sound that why r u here. For whom U r living.....

A silence.......continues till everything blacks out. U enter a vicious circle of"shunya" where u keep on remembering all good things bout u, ur life, ur dreams, ur achievements.
Looking carefully, I found someone waiting out there. Whu is he or perhaps SHE, Cant recognise...Am i meeting her fr the frst time. Yeah, its the real truth for what I was looking for. The only truth that survives...I feel like crying with tears rolling out my eyes. I don kno where to go...but U r the one...the truth of my life....and I cant abhor u.....so open ur arms and let me enter for i need ur bond and stay amicably by ur side. A sudden aberration from a closet to a .....

Well, I was going thru one of my frnds profile when I found that Life is indeed a race. No matter if your physical appearance hasnt cmout to this world, You still keep on contesting millions and millions of other fellows for a single goal............Survival.

"I was my fathers' fastest swimmer ...like all of you....."

This was how he quoted himself. True..infact very true. Afterall we all should be proud of ourselves. We all are born champions. Like all other prodigy we too have proven our worth in or rather for the very existence of life. Let me go back and find out the veracity of this statement.
Lets go back to year 1984 when the first maiden race was to begun. I along with millions and millions of similar looking pigheads was thrown in an arena. Dark almost like a blunt nite engulfed into a warm pool we all set ourselves to move on. But where??? Nobody knew. I looked at the fellow piggie. I cud clearly see the calmness on his face. He was quite reluctant to budge on. Lying cozy in the pool he prefered to stay back. Ahh...see whu is that...that guy is running like crazy man. I just cant belive its a sort of treasure hunt or what. 1 guy, secnd and here is third...Ohh goshhh...thousand and thousands are making a stampede but nobdy knows where to go. Is it some sort of rat race where one runs and all follows?? Not exactly, coz we all know that there is a cherished package smwhere here and we all are set to find that. Running running and running...almost an hours struggle. Now, its quite easy to move on coz most of the other fellas are left behind. 1000....100....10...wow, I m in top 10 yaar. but when this race gonna end. I am tired like a dead soul. Hey, thats a pun....I called myself a dead soul even when I m nt born and looking for a life !!!!!!!!

I still cudnt understand what exactly that surprise gift is. For what we are running. Is it for our life?? Noway, coz we are still nt born...so is it fr sm plzr? or some power...or some....ahhh i don even know the proper wrds...:(

I turned back and the whole lot of piggies shrunk to three of us. Atleast I got the third position and I m all content wth that. I m feeling tired and lets get back to the pool frm where we all came. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...whats that...I stuck into sm oval shaped pebble or smthing..and haaa I m changing...I m changing the very existence of myself....Is this what we all were running fr???? Am I the winner.......poooooh!!! its so easy mannnn.....what ds that mean??? Am I d best???
Am I a winner???

This implies that whatever I m ...I m the best amongst millions of similar species. But still I m struggling fr many things in this wrld...why is so....Am i responsible fr my failure...No ...Never...coz I was the best amongst all.....so what....those other may be better....or perhaps their father must be better than my father...Thats why they r excelling nd I m nt....So is it okk to pass on all my faults to my father....????? Ummmm....lemme think...

Don u feel that this whole wrld is a rat race...starting frm a day one we constanlty keeep running wthout knowing the motive...the purpose...the cherished dream.....U see every prsn sitting tensed to excel in his life....Everyone trying hard to meet his ends...everyone looking so perturbed bout the race....the Grand Race...of Life.

If its so....then those other piggies were better taht they lost that day and survived the fury of present day...while I survived that day and nw being harassed by evryothr Piggy in this grand finale....Now shud I say myself as a fastest swimmer...or shud I call myself the wrst fated swimmer!!!!!