Around 10 months back on a drunken night:

I might be in the state of delirium where I am nt able to think or rather percieve what changes are going around me. I feel as if I am being turned into a carcass. I constantly question myself about the very existence of happiness, freedom, vigour, power and all luring adjectives. Do I really fit into these or its just a matter of chance that I m being deprived from them. Well Well, I dont even know whatever I have scribbled so far. Seems, I am in a state of immense pain that can never be shown to the outer world. It ruins me, It ruins my sanity. I am someone without a worth. Cant think of anything. Wish I change soon from what I m.

Thankfully my Blog is back